I just have to say how much I have loved being home. Being home fills me with gratitude I feel so loved and supported and it's just the greatest. I'm heading back to school tonight and wishing I had more time at home. But I'll have a full 2.5 months this summer and I'm sure that'll be way too long. Anyway.
So a few things happened right after I got my call. For one, I stopped sleeping. Case and point, this post was originally drafted at 4:30 am last week. Me not sleping actually started right before I got it, but it's gotten worse since. I just can't get to sleep until 3 or 4. Then I get up at nine, sleep through bio lecture, and fail quizzes. So that's bad. Another thing is that I'm distracted all the time. Everyone told me school would be harder once I had a call. And I was like, "no, that's silly, why would that be?" and then I got my call and proved them all right. It somehow just got infinitely harder to do homework. I do my mission prep super seriously and really focused. But work - even little work like readings - is an uphill battle. I've never been one to struggle with time management, but all of a sudden, it's hard for me.
I've decided these things are not going to work well, and that I really do want to stick to my goal of a 4.0 this semester, so I'm going for an April that I've titled "Facebook Fasts and Other Experiments in Going Without". I'm going to cut wasted internet time out of my life. I've blocked facebook, hulu, and netflix, and deleted my instagram, pinterest, and facebook apps on my phone for a month. Which means that if I'm on my computer or my phone, it's for something necessary (or vaguely necessary . Like talking to people or writing a paper or blogging (can't give up everything). I'm unplugging.
I was off facebook for most of my senior year. It was good for me. I think social networking makes me more judgmental and I'm working really hard to become less judgmental Plus tv is a waste of time. I have to read 18 months worth of books between now and July 31. I don't have time to watch all seven seasons of Sabrina the Teenage Witch (because that happened, and it was embarrassing). And I can keep in touch with people without facebook. I'm sure of it.
So the big change starts tomorrow. I think I might go through withdrawals. We'll see. Wish me luck.
I feel liberated already. Phew.