The truth about me is that right now, for the first time in a long while, I'm totally making it up as I go along. I don't really know what I'm doing, but I know that it feels right, and I believe that listening to my heart instead of my head, for a while anyway, is good.
The truth about me is that I'm fiery and decisive and fearless anyway.
The truth about me is that I love school: the work, the classes, the essays, the challenge. I love it all. If I could just get 8 PhDs, I would. Learning is lovely. I'm so grateful I've gotten to have parents and classes and friends and teachers who have taught me that.
The truth about me is that I have a funny soft spot for aquamarines. First of all, it's just a beautiful word. Aquamarine. But also, in Lorin's mineral collection, aquas were always my favorite. Whenever he bought a new aqua at a mineral show, he would always be extra sure to buy it for me. For graduation he bought me a necklace with a teeny-tiny aqua. I don't really take it off.
It looks like this:
The truth about me is that my favorite font in the whole wide world is Garamond. I write all my poems in Garamond. It's thin and delicate, and yet assertive and respectable.
The truth about me is that right now I have faith that the things I go through are not meaningless.
The truth about me is that I consider it my privilege to start sentences with conjunctions. But and And are my favorite ways to begin sentences.
The truth about me is that I feel really bad for Romney. I wasn't expecting to, but I pity the man. It must be so discouraging to pour six years of your life into something only to lose by a narrow(ish) margin. Poor guy.
The truth about me is that I have always been, and will probably always be, the little girl who believes she'll touch that star. I'm still not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing.
The truth about me is that sometimes I'm very brave.
The truth about me is that I believe that listening is an act of love. I know absolutely that I am loved because I am listened to. Listening is the most sure way to show interest and engagement and investment. And I often wish I were better at listening.
The truth about me is that I prefer the first barefoot summer night to the first snowflakes of November.
The truth about me is that I'm really happy right now, where I am.
The truth about me is that I've found being an adult to be an un-fucking-real adventure.
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Day 8: Today I am grateful for all the support I have in my life. I am grateful that I have that to lean on, and to anchor to.